If Heaven Had a Telephone

If only heaven had a telephone,
I could hear your voice just one more time.
I could listen to you say you love me
and that I'll be just fine.

If only heaven had a telephone,
I could call and tell you about my day.
About how life has become so hard and confusing
ever since you left that cold February day.

If only heaven had a telephone,
I could get your advice...
on life, and love, and surviving
and how to put down this numbing vice.

If only heaven had a telephone,
I could know what was on your mind...
Like do I make you proud sweet Terbear?
Am I smart and fun and kind?

If only heaven had a telephone,
I could tell you how my heart aches.
That the pain of missing you is so surreal
and that I don't know how much more I can take.

If only heaven had a telephone,
I could call you up and cry.
Because nothing is the same without you
Why did you have to say goodbye?

But heaven doesn't have a telephone,
so I can't call to cry or scream.
So I'm left here imagining the words you'd say
like "love you more" and "sweet dreams". What I would give up
just to see your name come across my phone.
For you to say you'll always be with me,
and that i'll never be alone.

Since heaven doesn't have a telephone
I'll settle for memories of times before.
Until I see you again sweet mama,
and hear your voice once more. 💔